Why

Why is it, that everyone else around me seems to have provision for not only what they need but what they want. I can’t make it through I am so tired of Christians, I am so sick of church, it just seems as if everyone else gets away with talking and acting anyway they want. You say you are my God, you say you will rise up and protect me. How long Lord will you let me twist in the wind, stuck out here with nothing to do and nothing to be. What does it take to live God’s life, how do I move on from this.